If you have not read the previous posts before here, please read first: Living My Silent Life Part 1 – 5. I do not want you to be confused where my story is coming from first. In the meantime, this is my last chapter of “Living My Silent Life” series.
There you go…
When I entered into *CSDF High School, I was considered a target and felt awkward from the beginning. I realized that many Deaf students from high school were somehow friendly, selfish, and – snooty. Anyway, I met some neat friends, but they turned out to be snooty. Yuck…
I made my confession that I was involved with the wrong crowd due to the peer pressure. My grades were failing since I was with my first boyfriend. The social issues in high school were worse. Through the years, some people whom I thought were friends treated me badly. They ignored me like I was such a loser. They made fun of me and wrote on the wall in the restroom, using “Joyce is BITCH” or “Joyce is SLUT.” That said, friends gossiped with friends. They did not care at all. That was how teenaged students behaved.
At this time, I felt deep within that I wanted to get out of high school due to the peer pressures because the high school staff did not care at all. They thought that I was making up stories to get out of school. They did not listen at all.
Sadly, I was bullied by a lot of friends and staff. One of my teachers treated me worse as he ignored me when I needed help with my homework because I did not understand a few questions from my assignment in class. I felt helpless from my teachers. I was very patient with teachers. None of them were my favorites.
At home, I talked with my mother about moving to a different school, she ignored my feelings and thoughts. My mother did not care how I felt about high school. She did not listen. My mother was too busy with her stupid nursing career, she left me out. She really hated my boyfriend, she thought that he was very poor. She expected me to find a good man who was very wealthy. Many wealthy men are selfish and only care for themselves in the end. Oh, sure. I did not want that. Do you have to marry a very rich man when you grow up? I am sure that you did not want that, too. In Mark 10:25, Christ said “It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the Kingdom of Heaven.”
While I was with my first and former boyfriend, there were some troubles in my life. My former boyfriend was a very troubled boy, I was too sweet of a girl to be involved with a guy like him. I never used any drugs or smoked any illegal things. That was my time of experiencing as being a teenage girl who having a crush on a very troubled boy just like the Beverly Hills 90210. Unfortunately, my former boyfriend was expelled from CSDF due to the numbers of troubled social issues at school. God had a plan for my life, who knows where it would have led me had he not been expelled.
At last, I finally graduated from CSDF high school. Shortly before I graduated, I told myself that I needed to do something new for my next chapter. I was very relieved that I was free from the craziness of that horrific Deaf school!
In my own words, I encourage that if you have Deaf child and decide to put him or her to the school for the deaf, I strongly advised that you do your research, interview former students from the schools, and check the educational programs & social concerns first before you make a right decision. Additionally, I strongly advised that you should not let your child to live in the residential school in order to avoid the troubled dorm counselors issues, drugs & sexual abuse issues, and – peer pressures.
Please open your mind and listen to your child if she or he is not happy with their school and reconsider the decision you are making, but it will impact your life negatively if they harbor resentment toward you.
…Thank you for reading all the chapters from my “Living My Silent Life” series…
*CSDF = California School for the Deaf, Fremont
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